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Maktub: A Journey Home

Light liberating itself

Maktub: A Journey Home

Your given name is your identity and Naoko didn’t have a given name.  Her name was rejected at birth by the registration office in Japan and was replaced by a temporary one; a name she used to live as herself. This drove her to an imperative life-long quest to discover her true identity. Maktub: A Journey Home is a memoir of her odyssey – to heal refusal, violence, emotional neglect, self- denial, alienation, and insanity in her home land. She later encountered a new set of challenges in Canada, her adopted country, which deepened her healing and insight.  Naoko shares how Light within, no matter how deeply confined, found its way to Liberate Itself.

Naoko Nakajima
Naoko Nakajima – photo by Masumi Mizuno

Excerpts from Maktub: A Journey Home

From Chap. 5  “Guide

I will not ask for forgiveness.  I will not try to erase myself and thereby extinguish another life.  I will not look away or try to escape from the darkness.  Instead, I will live on in it.  I will embrace it in my bosom.  I will taste it to the fullest.  Because it is the only thing the life I’d taken left me.  That must be the only thing that I can do for it.  Never forget that the life was given and I took it.  I ended it out of my inability to love.  I will learn to love.  I will find myself and I will learn to love.

It seemed like a horrible idea, though.  I had just discovered that “I” was nothing.  The physical I, my flesh, seemed to have been made up only of dust and lust, while inside there was nothing.   What was worse, I was a cursed sinner.  I was impotent to love.  There seemed no hope for anything.  There seemed no other way, either.

From Chap. 17  “Upheavals

The train got to the airport.  It would be my final few hours in Japan.  I was alone with a suitcase, half of which was packed with materials for Maktub.  In my hand was a copy, too.  Awe and gratitude overflowed from my heart, as I saw I’d been guided by Maktub all the way to that moment.  First, God granted the content, for me to live; next, He told me to write it down, which was a profound healing.  Then, the clearance!  I was just about to leave behind the last remaining piece – my country.  At age 50, past the halfway point in life, I was also anxious about the unrevealed chapters which were soon to unfold themselves.  I prayed for Divine blessings.

From Chap. 23  “Sunrise

Oh all the game players in my life are here! Emotions swirled around.  Pleasant as well as unpleasant.

The next moment, time was gone!  In the timelessness, I found myself in warm, bright Light.  Absolute, Limitless, Boundless LIGHT that filled the entire Universe and beyond. 


Struck by overpowering awe, instantly I prostrated to IT; the only possible, automatic, and natural act a human being could perform – when in touch with Absolute Majestic Authority, Power and Warmness.

Then I was smitten by even bigger awe and amazement.  I was bowing down to the ABSOLUTE but I was also the ONE being bowed down to!!!  At the same time!  I was the subject and I was the object.  No this or that.  I was not in front of LIGHT, nor part of LIGHT.  I was LIGHT ITSELF.

Testimonial from Thanh Van

A Wonderful Journey

Naoko Nakajima is a courageous woman, opening her heart and her life to us readers.
Through this book, she shares the strength and the wisdom she has earned from her many hardships.
Her story and thoughts are sure to captivate your interest and make you reflect upon your own life experiences.